But who's counting ...

370 - the number of nights I've been sleeping alone.
351 days ago - Vic just had his emergency surgery to correct the post operative blockage.
13 - the number of days Vic had left.

 

Vic was on his feet. Eager to get back home. Later that day, hopes were dashed when as doctors told Vic he would require emergency surgery the next morning.

What???
How???
WHY???

 

Come, take the walk down memory lane with me ....

Driving to the VA.

A look with which I was so familiar in the past years. Months.
Eyes forward. Jaw fixed. Target locked. One man. Alone.

 

Viens finally gave up. Port installed so that Vic could do yet another round of chemo & just be able to give blood. He never flinched or complained when the nurses endlessly poked his arms & hands looking for any place to get some blood.

"Whatever it takes" is what he would say.

 

It is very hard to look at the scars. Knowing what brought them to him. Not for the feint hearted.

 

As always, outside surrounded by the peace & healing calm.

 

To think, this was only the beginning. I never thought this would be so hard for me. Nothing can prepare you for your own personal grief process.

Mine is certainly taking me down roads I never expected to travel.

I miss him.

That's all.

From the world of online personals ....

I really, really needed this laugh. Too funny & I wish I could have made it up ...

Definitely smacks of "Eats Shoots & Leaves"

"HEROINVERO"is a 51-year old living
in Vero Beach, Florida, US .

The Devil did it!

 

From the world of senior singles ...

It seems that the moment Vic's obit hit the paper, my spam box became innundated with flirts from internet dating sites, specifically senior ones.

Far from being even remotely interested in dating, I must say these sites can provide some serious entertainment value.
A peek into another world.

I have learned little things: when the guy is wearing a baseball hat, it means he is bald. Sensitive usually means he got picked on ruthlessly when younger. No photo & complex scripting also spells some kind of allusive trouble.

This morning, instead of hitting delete all, I read this one & had to post it.

What do YOU think???

'A little about me...

When a man and a woman find each other in this confluence of confusion, insanity, and just downright incivilities that we now seem to be bombarded with from nowhere, rather than give up, rather than compromise who you are, or rather than feel downtrodden, why not fight back, push at what is wrong, fight for what is good, and feel that special bond which only two persons with a true affinity for each other can ever know.

What are you looking for in a partner?

A good hearted woman with a big appetite for loving! I am both passionate and compassionate.

For it to work, it must be both the head and the heart; the lust and the spirit; the touch and the feel; the longing and the release; and, best of all, when we laugh, it will always be for the right reasons and at the right time. For then, but only then, will we experience each other’s inner being.

For I AM ALL MAN. And you must be ALL WOMAN. A rib from my breast. And then you will receive my best, dear person.

I'd just like to add...

I love fine dining with a classy woman who is a lady, and I love classy people who say what they mean, and mean what they say."

Reason, Season, Lifetime ...

People come into your life for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime.

When you know which one it is,
you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then,
without any wrongdoing on your part
or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something
to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered
and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order
to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person
and put what you have learned to use
in all other relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,
whether you were a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime.

ShitMyMomSays:

"Karen, can you please bake a cd for me?"

"Wha'?"

"You know, bake me a dvd."

"Burn it, Mummy. You mean "burn you" a cd."

And the oy goes on!